It's official. I'm in the blogosphere. A bit nervous about this, and really have no idea what I'm doing or what all will end up in this space. My intention, really, is to keep a journal for my family. As a new mom, I feel like life is passing by so quickly. I cannot believe my daughter, Evangeline (Evie, as we call her) is already 10.5 months old. And that I am a "stay at home mom" (or SAHM as the Internet seems to deem me). And that I have been a SAHM for 10.5 months...
I seem to struggle daily with what I "should" be doing. I am appreciating this time with Evie, as a time to get to know her, and really to get to know myself in this new role. I still struggle with whether I should be working, like that's a more worthwhile cause somehow. When I know raising my daughter is the most worthwhile thing I'll ever have the opportunity to do (unless of course I'm blessed with another child, then raising my children will be the most worthwhile...). But, society doesn't fully embrace the role of a SAHM, or perhaps I just don't. Like I need the feedback of a boss telling me I have done a good job, or the ego-stroking that comes with a successful idea. You don't get that as a mom. "They" always say being a mom is the least appreciated job and the toughest one to boot. And while I don't love agreeing with "them", I'd say they're right. I know how hard I was on my parents, and I'm fully prepared for Evie to see me with disdain at some point in our future. So, for now, I'll gobble up the giggles and soak up the smooches. Those are my rewards at the end of a day when Evie has skipped all her naps and I've barely had time to brush my teeth or pee.
I guess I plan to use this space as a way to catalog our time together as a family, and as a way to keep my own voice. At times it will be more of a journal than anything else. At others, a scrapbook. And perhaps many other things as well. We will just have to see as it evolves.
I seem to struggle daily with what I "should" be doing. I am appreciating this time with Evie, as a time to get to know her, and really to get to know myself in this new role. I still struggle with whether I should be working, like that's a more worthwhile cause somehow. When I know raising my daughter is the most worthwhile thing I'll ever have the opportunity to do (unless of course I'm blessed with another child, then raising my children will be the most worthwhile...). But, society doesn't fully embrace the role of a SAHM, or perhaps I just don't. Like I need the feedback of a boss telling me I have done a good job, or the ego-stroking that comes with a successful idea. You don't get that as a mom. "They" always say being a mom is the least appreciated job and the toughest one to boot. And while I don't love agreeing with "them", I'd say they're right. I know how hard I was on my parents, and I'm fully prepared for Evie to see me with disdain at some point in our future. So, for now, I'll gobble up the giggles and soak up the smooches. Those are my rewards at the end of a day when Evie has skipped all her naps and I've barely had time to brush my teeth or pee.
I guess I plan to use this space as a way to catalog our time together as a family, and as a way to keep my own voice. At times it will be more of a journal than anything else. At others, a scrapbook. And perhaps many other things as well. We will just have to see as it evolves.
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